MAY 2025
29th:
Im Not Happy And Im Not Sad.
A NATURAL BISEXUALITY
24th:
Edit: My life is still like this despite pushing even harder.
It’s Hard To Live In The Moment Especially When You Live At Your Job Just To Be Able To Live Moments And Not Die.
This Is Not Normal, Either Way Try To Enjoy It. Moneyless, Communityless. A Tired Person You Are.
A Very Selfish Thought
We’re all here, right now, in this moment. Some of us are caught in the past, holding on to things that don’t even serve us anymore. “Issues” That just slow us down. Catch the past to capture the objective, nothing is here to serve you. Except yourself. Your body is the only piece of equipment dedicated to your benefit, use, sacrifice. Be gentle with yourself sometimes, the best thing is to step back, give yourself a breather. Let yourself take the time off. Everything is a “just yet”. And be mindful, because not everyone believes they can become who they truly are. Not everyone is trying to become their own. Some people are so afraid of standing on their own two feet. Scared without a threat. These people will destroy you. Draining your energy, walk away. Don’t waste another second trying to please them.
A Defense Mechanism
Control your nostalgia—don’t let it control you. Tomorrow’s gonna come at you and feel underwhelming buts gradual, your dream might appear tomorrow and you have to have that love ready. If the advice that doesn’t feel like “additions” but restrictions, rules, laws. Then they are complete poison. Those who dish it out often have no idea what’s really going on in your world. Don’t let them convince you they know what’s best. Don’t waste your time listening to people who aren’t in your shoes. People who aren’t shooting for where you want to go. Love Who You Love, For The Better of Your World. Crash And Burn With Your World. Rise Again.
The War On Love
I love who I love. I move how I move that’s it. If throughout my life I had listened to people that never ask me how “I feel” tell me how I should feel. There would always be an obstacle and id have nothing. So save your breath. Gatekeeper energy is beggar energy. A dictator fetching respect. You (gatekeepers) are backwards, you have to love first to be loved back. Dangling a resource over our heads. Simply by sharing you would’ve had a beautiful garden, instead you chose to have but a single dandelion. Let’s see what happens when we come and rip it out. Love isn’t about control—it’s about giving. You have to love people for who they are, not because you want them to love you back. And you dont want love you want total domination.
For Me
I shoot for authenticity, always a poser first. I keep it raw with myself because that’s how I become who I am. If I want something, I take it no apologies. I don’t need your handouts or your recommendations. “Nadie va a valorar tu trabajo más que tú.” Only you can value your worth. Don’t wait for someone to hand it to you—create your own.
Inspired By Firewatch.
17th:
Distance Grows The Heart But I know Sometimes We Just Drift Apart.
16th:
EVERY VID I RECORD
Save me, it feels like playing that avatar game.
or when you check your debit and sht only got 17 cents.
10th:
lingbling x gabe13
At the esports presentation. Presented by gabe13. Talking to a room full of people. Im so proud of you. Never be ashamed when you’re a thousand percent right, all the adults had no fucking clue what you were talking about. They were snoozing. And I thought it was just me and you. But it’s all your classmates too. Boy or girl they all knew whats up. Growing up; it wasn’t like that for me. I cant lie to you I’m envious. They were schooling me on VIDEOGAMES im like wtf. Schooling me ? fuk. Im not doing enough. Imagine when you’re all in college. I gotta go crazy when I get up in there. I got competition from the next gen and im seriously scared. Part of me wants to say “ We walked so they could run” but we didn’t do shit. We just left the cocoon. You guys aren’t halfway done and already this great? I don’t wanna have to lower my mic! Me and Gabe13 are going to be in our twenties at the same time. I don’t know if it’s just because of that school but bro they’re understanding concepts I didnt learn until way later. Programmed better? And Ive been on this planet longer. Education is so important. Faith in getting an education, I’m devoted to mine. Im glad I got a reminder of what it’s like to be a student, in a classroom presenting ideas you believe to be true.
I think they may of called you on the phone today.
Videogames are everything, bigger than sports, bigger than movies, bigger than fashion, most important art medium to ever exist and thats not a lie. If you know this you’re early? Who’s early? Is Gen Z early? Old enough & young enough at the same time. Living in a world ruled by men from a different planet. But Generation Alpha can feel it in their soul. The art for the ones locked in between 4 walls. If I don’t push up then they will and they’ll leave me in the dust. They don’t have a servant mindset. Rotting is not a vibe. If im in the way then I get pushed off- “with remorse”. Exactly.